i'm stupid. really really stupid.

Why do I have to explain myself to you? WHY. Why do you have to ask if I still care, if I still love you, etc. Shouldn't you know? I feel like I'm doing something wrong. Really, I tell you over &over. It kills me EVERY time you ask. EVERYTIME. I want to make you happy. I feel like I'm messing up everything. I don't know how I do, &I don't know how to fix it. I care about you like CRAZY. I love you like CRAZY. I can't even begin to explain. You don't realize it, &I want you to, so bad. It's like there's nothing I can do to cheer you up. What is it that I do that gives you those feelings. I am really that horrible? I can't do anything right these days...